I am 38 years old with two adorable kids and a wonderful husband. 2 working parents with travel schedules, building a new house, trying to be involved in our community, and trying to be great parents. Living life in a place I love, with the people that I love. Pretty much the luckiest woman around. You could also read this as overly busy but trying to have it all.
For the last few weeks, as I have been working on planning for my husbands 40th birthday which is coming this fall, I have been coming to grips with how short life seems. I know that this may sound melodramatic. What hit me in talking with Jon about turning 40, is that mathmatically, given the average life expectancy, we are about half way through our life (or a little past that). This can either scare me or make me celebrate what lies ahead. What it actually has caused me to do, as I start thinking about it, is to wonder if it is true. We have a number of family friends or relatives that are dealing with serious cancer, and I have a coworker who is 48 who has recently been diagnosed with Stage 2 ovarian cancer. All of it is shocking, and sad. In particular those who are so young, and haven’t lived the life that they have claimed to have wanted. It is a morbid thought, but my worry-meter has been rising. This worry was capped off this week when I attended the “Go Red for Women” luncheon hosted by the American Heart Association. One of the speakers was a 38 year old mother of two boys who had a major heart incident at the age of 31. Yikes! A little too close to home.
But, the worst thing I can do is to worry. Worry fills my head and my time with ideas and thoughts that have no fruit. So yesterday, as I sat writing this at the salon while getting my nails done during “girls day out” with my lovely Katharine, I have a renewed commitment to enjoying the moments of my life (even the stressful and busy ones). A commitment to making choices in my life and our families life (our food, our exercise, our habits) that create a long healthy life together. And, a commitment to make what I hope is a longer second half of my life even better than the first.