“I just wanna make you laugh. I just wanna see that smile. Babe, we’re only here, oh, for a little while. I just wanna hold you till we fall asleep. I want love, I want us, I want you, I want me, I want peace.” – O.A.R.
We have been fighting sickness in our house for what feels like the entire winter. One of us gets sick, then the other, then Mom which takes everything down. On this late-April weekend in Park City, rain and snow have graced us with their presence waking up to a 3-4″ layer of white on everything, including our spring tulips. We decided to take it as a weekend just to hunker down in our house and be at “peace.” No commitments to anyone, no plans, just each other.
This morning as I prepared some bacon and eggs for breakfast, Matthew was building a whole scene in the living room – Dusty Crophopper was being rescued by the Fire and Rescue helicopter while Katharine was preparing for class at her art table. She was a 13 year old that can drive to school, and is practicing her cursive writing. In this land of pretend, O.A.R’s song “Peace” came on our stereo and both kids starting belting out the above lyrics almost subconsciously.
What a good memory to capture on my blog. I am grateful to have the life that I have. Today it isn’t marketing meets motherhood, it is must motherhood and being at peace.
Yesterday I had the opporunity to attend two important events in the state of Utah. The first was the Governor’s Economic Summit and the second was a private gathering for “Utah’s Wonder Women.” Both events had a focus on women in leadership, and are committed to helping Utah move our state forward toward equality.
So much good going on in both of these forums, but my most memorable quote from the day came repeated at both of them: “You Can’t Be What You Can’t See.”. This was in reference to defining one of the roles that female leaders need to take both in Utah and around the world. Often, without knowing it, we are role models to those around us. In my case, listening to this made me proud of what I do, not because I have arrived at some place of achievement, but because I am showing my daughter and my son what is possible.
One of our guest speaker, Margit Wennmachers, a partner with Andreessen Horowitz, shared a story about how her daughter’s second grade class had the opportunity to Skype with a female college student in Germany who was studying to be a physicist. Within weeks, four of the girls in the class had decided that when they grow up they want to become physicists too. How amazing that exposure to something alone, puts the seed of an idea in childrens’ minds. What a powerful example.
Sometimes, I look at myself and wonder if all of the stress and pressure, and a feeling of missing out on things in my kids’ lives, makes working worth it. I love what I do. But, I love my kids and Jon more. After yesterday, I gained more realization that although it is, of couse, a trade off, I don’t work just for me. I work for Katharine and Matthew, and for all of the other young women in my life…to help them see what they can be.