Time is such a hard thing to keep in perspective.
Sometimes you wish it away, like those moments you are sick in bed with the flu and you just want your sickness to be over with. You hope beyond hope that time will pass faster so you can get back to normal.
Sometimes you wish to relive it, like those moments you reminisce about your past. The “remember when…” moments that seem to grow in frequency as you get older.
Sometimes you wish for more of it, like those moments when your list of things to do is longer than time allows.
Sometimes it moves slow, but for me most times it moves fast.
After watching Katharine’s preschool graduation yesterday, I am simply grateful for the time I have had being a mommy to this precious little one. It is amazing how she has grown and what a wonderful caring, little person she has become.
A few weeks ago, I heard Chris Warner speak. Chris is one of America’s most renowned mountaineers having summited five of the worlds’ tallest peaks including both Everest and K2. He also is an entrepreneur (the founder and President of Earth Treks, Inc.), publisher and speaker sharing the lessons that he has learned on leadership through his many expeditions. In 2007, he led the Shared Summits expedition successfully summiting K2 and proceeded to produce an Emmy award-winning film about the expedition.
His message in his talk was a good one. He spoke in reference to his journey to the top of K2. Other athletes on other teams abandoned some of their friends, didn’t help others succeed and even stole equipment from his team. Alternatively, his team’s approach was different. They helped others to succeed and stay safe. Some of these choices to help others along the way caused additional hardship to Chris’s team. But, in the end, they completed a successful climb that they are proud of until this day. My favorite quotation was:
Don’t get to the top of the peak you are climbing and not be proud of the way that you got there. – Chris Warner
There are a few reasons why this resonated with me so much:
- Often times as a goal-oriented person, it can be easy to see my individual choices and actions as a means to achieve the end goal. Instead, what I constantly have to remind myself is that the journey is what I will remember and learn from. It is what builds my life. Without remembering this, I can get too focused on the end and not enjoy the process of getting there.
- My gut instinct is so often right. In my life, there have been moments where I didn’t feel good about a decision I made. My gut often times was telling me in the moment to make a different decision, or to reverse my course. Sometimes I listened, sometimes I didn’t. Luckily, these decisions were small and time passed with no consequence. However, despite the lack of consequence, I have regretted not trusting my instinct and reversing my course if for nothing but the knowledge that it would’ve been the right thing to do.
- I only have one life to live. How I live this life, or in Chris’s case how he climbed K2, is the ultimate reflection of my character. I try my hardest to do what is right at every turn, to make choices that I would be proud of my children knowing that I made.
We are in the middle of a relaxing beach vacation with our kids for the very first time. Sunday was both of the kids first time playing at the beach. Katharine was beyond excited. As she played in the surf, giggles, an occasional squeal and moments of “this is amazing,” were what filled the air. What a moment this was for her! Her happiness filled our faces with joy just being around her.
I sit here while the kids are napping after another fun filled morning thinking about my list of things to do both back at home and at work. How in the world did my to-do list begin to creep back in my head? Instead of heading upstairs to relax, or reading a book, I pull out my computer and begin down a path of checking email…almost out of habit. Has my busy lifestyle made me incapable of just relaxing? What the hell am I doing.
Today, I am confessing. In hopes to not make this my path for the afternoon, I am writing this blog instead of doing my work email (oh damn- the notification of another email just popped up….hold strong). I am choosing that a “to-do” list shouldn’t run my life, despite how busy I am. I am choosing that by confessing, I am taking back control. Working too much is not a forgone conclusion. I refuse to accept that my email and my work list can control my life. It starts today.
My commitment for this week is to get back on vacation, and stay there; to start squealing with my kids on the beach when the surf touches my toes; to a margarita (or two) for lunch; and to a nap snuggling with my beautiful little kids. I will be back next week!