Time is such a hard thing to keep in perspective.
Sometimes you wish it away, like those moments you are sick in bed with the flu and you just want your sickness to be over with. You hope beyond hope that time will pass faster so you can get back to normal.
Sometimes you wish to relive it, like those moments you reminisce about your past. The “remember when…” moments that seem to grow in frequency as you get older.
Sometimes you wish for more of it, like those moments when your list of things to do is longer than time allows.
Sometimes it moves slow, but for me most times it moves fast.
After watching Katharine’s preschool graduation yesterday, I am simply grateful for the time I have had being a mommy to this precious little one. It is amazing how she has grown and what a wonderful caring, little person she has become.
I am excited to report that after two weeks straight of Jon traveling, our new system seems to be working. What a difference a year makes, and it is a good thing.
Last year (2013/2014 school year), both of our kids went into a great daycare/preschool for the first time. For Katharine (our then 3 1/2 year old), it was her second year, and for Matthew (our then 16 month old) it was his first time in any kind of away from home child care. We were super excited about getting both kids a spot in the school as there aren’t many to go around, but worried about balancing two busy work lives with daycare schedule. Once we got through the drama of the first two weeks of Matthew’s adjustment to the school, we felt like we were settling in. Oh, but we were wrong. The next 8 months proceeded to be full of sick days, Jon traveling more than he ever had and me trying to hold on for dear life. On the positive side, the kids absolutely loved the school and were growing so much every single day.
As the end of the school year approached last June, we were thrilled to be planning on a full-time nanny for the summer. It felt like it was going to be a vacation. Not rushing to get two kids out the door in the morning, not dealing with sick kid coverage and unplanned time off work. We had a great summer but those brief 9 weeks between school years moved faster than I could have imaged. As this school year began approaching and our fall travel schedules began to fill in, I started to freak out I seriously didn’t think I could survive another year like last year.
Enter problem solving mode….we ended up deciding to build a system. We hired a wonderful babysitter help with the kids. She helps us both with the kids and doing odds and ends around our house including a weekly grocery store run. We are two weeks in to our new system and I feel like I may survive. That this small choice to get some help has built more sanity in my schedule than I ever could have believed. The downside – guilt. I feel like I am yet again outsourcing my life. What is it about guilt? It seems to haunt me despite the positive energy the system is helping me to build. Another topic for another day….
For now, I am highly recommending a system. It is helping to bring order to chaos and allowing my time with my kids to be as positive as possible.