We are in the middle of a relaxing beach vacation with our kids for the very first time. Sunday was both of the kids first time playing at the beach. Katharine was beyond excited. As she played in the surf, giggles, an occasional squeal and moments of “this is amazing,” were what filled the air. What a moment this was for her! Her happiness filled our faces with joy just being around her.
I sit here while the kids are napping after another fun filled morning thinking about my list of things to do both back at home and at work. How in the world did my to-do list begin to creep back in my head? Instead of heading upstairs to relax, or reading a book, I pull out my computer and begin down a path of checking email…almost out of habit. Has my busy lifestyle made me incapable of just relaxing? What the hell am I doing.
Today, I am confessing. In hopes to not make this my path for the afternoon, I am writing this blog instead of doing my work email (oh damn- the notification of another email just popped up….hold strong). I am choosing that a “to-do” list shouldn’t run my life, despite how busy I am. I am choosing that by confessing, I am taking back control. Working too much is not a forgone conclusion. I refuse to accept that my email and my work list can control my life. It starts today.
My commitment for this week is to get back on vacation, and stay there; to start squealing with my kids on the beach when the surf touches my toes; to a margarita (or two) for lunch; and to a nap snuggling with my beautiful little kids. I will be back next week!